Fanfiction: Invisibility Chapter 1

-Insanity's Partner

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I couldn't understand it. Why Bella was gone when I returned for her. Where had she gone? I had almost gone to Italy, but Alice keeps having visions of Bella… Only, they aren't very clear.

I tried my hardest… I'd spent 27 years searching for her… But she was gone. I scanned the entire world with a fine-toothed comb for Bella Swan. But she was nowhere to be found.

Imagine my surprise, when I did crack, when I did run back to her, expecting to beg and plead, and at least holding a hope of a chance to be reaccepted, where there was no one to accept me.

And finally, I was really alone. At least before, I had always known I would cave… And now… Now there was nothing. No one. I had a broken heart, even if it was dead.

I couldn't read their thoughts anymore… I didn't even try. I knew what they'd be thinking. 'She's dead, she's dead, and she's dead…But not as dead as him.'

So I couldn't take it. I'd locked myself in my room, only coming out to hunt when it proved desperately necessary, and the only thoughts I'd heard, were Alice's thoughts when she'd had another vision of Bella. But those only came once every few years or so. I didn't look forward to them… They held a distinctly desperate tone about them… It just made me more eager to find her.

But in my mind, I knew it was too late. I'd lost her. I'd taken my last chance at happiness… My little red balloon of contentedness, and popped it… No, more than popped it. I'd attacked it with a chainsaw!

And now, I was 'dead', and Bella was… I don't know what Bella was, or rather is.

She'd probably moved on my now. It's been 27 years. I'm sure she's found another man to…

My throat seared with jealousy.

The mere thought of any man…touching her…or doing to her the things I can only dream of doing….

I smashed by fist against the floor I was lying on, and the floor gave way.

I looked through the hole, uninterested, to see an appalled Esme beneath me.

"Edward!" she shrieked.

"Sorry, Esme." I said, numbly, but still somehow seething in jealousy.

Why did everyone else get to love? Bella probably has a boyfriend… or a husband…. And maybe…children. I shuddered. Why couldn't I be human? Why couldn't I be her first time? Why couldn't I provide her with the children I would want her to have? Why couldn't I kiss her without craving her blood every bit as much as I craved her body? Why did fate have to pick ME to have a taste at true love and then pull it away from me like a rug under my feet?

Because you deserve it, that's why. It was Bella's voice. It had gone through every emotion, sadness, numbness; there was a long 9 year period where I hadn't heard her voice in my head at all… I'd nearly gone insane with loneliness then. Now we were at anger. She was angry at me now.

I'm sorry Bella! I yelled in my mind.

It's too late now. She spat.

Please don't go Bella! I lied! I want you! I need you! I yelled again.

But she was already gone.

Why does Esme and Carlisle, Jasper and Alice, Emmet and Rosalie, get to have true love, but not me?

I wrenched my eyes shut, trying to clear the image of Bella sleeping in a bed somewhere, with some other man's arm wrapped around her waist.

I let a soft cry of pain escape my lips, but I didn't feel better.

But finally I managed to get up, dressed and catch up with my siblings to get ready for another day of school… At the Ice Lake High School in the city in Alaska we were currently residing in.

I couldn't remember which city, I was too numb. There were far too many cities we'd been to. Each one, coming and going too fast for me to catch up with.

I sat down in my seat in first hour French, anxious to finish this day. I already spoke fluent French. Probably more fluent than the instructor herself.

"Quoi regardez-vous fixement, Edouard?" The instructor snapped, angry that I had chosen to stare out the window instead of paying attention to her class.

"Apprécier juste le jour nuageux, Mme Cake."

"Bien, pourquoi ne flottez-vous pas en arrière avalez-vous pour mettre à la terre et apprécier la leçon que notre gouvernement paye toi pour apprendre?"

She probably didn't expect me to understand what she'd said. We weren't that far in the lesson yet.

"Avec tout le respect dû, Madame, je comprends déjà que tout vous enseignez à cette classe. Et je beaucoup plutôt regarderais fixement les nuages qu'écoute votre conférence."

I didn't have to stop once to think about word choice. I turned to look out of the window again, and before she could open her mouth to send me to the Front Office, or whatever she might have been planning to do with me, the classroom door had opened, and in walked a scent more similar to the one I'd been aching to smell for over twenty years, than I'd have thought possible.

But there was something off about this scent… It wasn't Bella's. It was too… stale to be Bella's. I stared wide-eyed at the girl that walked through the classroom door. She was no human.

She was a Vampire.

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